A old book of kids poems i found the other day i had to keep it after i saw the name of it.
Are you allways a 3rd wheel i am.It’s not that i haven’t had relationships i’ve had not tons but for my area i would say average atleast.But in the course of my shittastic life i had a mild stroke about six years ago well about hell it was six years ago.It changed me for the good in alot of ways at the time i was drinking a ton of hard liquor and i smoked like a house fire though i went back to that and only quit again 2 plus years ago.To get to my point though i’ve allways been shy and not very outgoing with the oppisite sex and the stroke just made that 100 fold worse.I pretty much just gave up totally for a few years even trying to engage in any form of dating.Which in retrospect was a very bad idea.I lost what little game i had and im like a broke gameboy no one wants so’s thrown in the waste basket of life.I guess why i am writing this is i don’t even feel like hanging out with most of my friends these days not that i don’t like to hangout with them but most all have someone hell most are married and im lost to that i am alone in so many things.I truge on though fair reader i keep going like a kamazze pilot hitting a ship.So one day something good will come of this maybe not for me but for some other sorry sob that reads this meandering mess that is my shittastic loser self going over the bad hands life has handed me.Sorry for being a downer this late hour and some good german beer made this pour from my mind.
Still thinking about how great this weeks full series 3 run of torchwood was.There has been an uproar over Ianto Jones death.I say like a few other places i’ve read that most of the people going apeshit over this do not understand the universe that Torchwood/Doctor Who/SJA/K9 come from.People besides the main character will allways come and go on a pretty steady basis as most want to further there careers.I think this is a good thing it shakes things up and keeps the shows going long past the time they would have made it to have they kept the same cast.For me this past week has been one of the Best tv weeks in a long long time tv isn’t there to make you laugh all the time and to make you feel good.It’s there for one because you want it there but in the back of your mind you want to challenge your ideals about you and your life and to make you feel.Well good tv does that it doesn’t just rot your brain.As you can tell i’ve watched to much bad because this is just a rambing mess of shit now but i hope someone gets the jist of it.
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For the new episode of Torchwood on YT and various other video sites.I don’t torrent i like to give them some money i buy the shows when they come to dvd.I guess what im getting at is if ppl see them somewhere send a link.
Hi i don’t really know why i came here.I like to vlog more than blog and i don’t do great at either.